Go BIG, or go home.

Lately...it has been tough.
Academically, it has been draining and discouraging, but hopefully I'll be able to give it my best and pull out with whatever happens.
Spiritually, it has been even more tough. The car broke down again, and it has just been frustrating asking people for rides to and fro, but praise the Lord for their serving hearts! It has been tough, but I'm %100 sure that God is growing me through all these trials- and man, are they trials.

Not sure if I'll be able to do JrCamp anymore. One being due to finals week- a debate between serving the Lord through faithful academics, or serving the Lord by being a camp counselor. Both, to me, are HUGE sacrifice. At one corner, I risk my academics being forever tainted, at the other corner I give up what I love to do. Decisions, decisions.

I was told yesterday that I need to be better at playing the guitar to make the music sound good during Bible study because that's how some people find their application afterwards....just didn't sit too well with me. I understand that I should serve in this manner, but really? do I need to worry about sounding good for other people? Honestly, I don't think God even cares HOW I sound, He rather I play one cord out of tune the entire time, then have me not worship Him.
Crazy world we live in.

I need to toughen up.
The other day after Sunday service, my sg and I went out to eat at Potbellies'. They now have this option where you can order a larger sandwich (approx. 30% larger) for about a buck more. As I was debating this delima, I asked, Elmo for his opinion. He quickly replied, "Go BIG, or go home".
Kinda sums up a Christian's life, huh. I feel that God is always telling us to "Go BIG". As we pray and ask for whatever it is we petition for, God calls us to "Go BIG", or have more faith in prayer! We have to learn to trust God with the BIG stuff in life, especially through prayer. Go on, pray for the improbable, we have a God who does the impossible! Originally when I started this paragraph, I had no intent of focusing on prayer. I simply loved the concept of- taking heart, be courageous, trust the Lord with everything, don't be afriad to fail, aim big miss little. As I typed it slowly evolved into simply having faith in God's soverign hand. When you pray, do you really mean it? When you witness to someone about Jesus, do you honestly believe you have changed for the better? When you say to someone, "praise God", is that what you want to do? Do you believe that as you serve in whatever field, whatever action, whomever, that all they/all you really need is some more of Jesus?
As my thoughts start to trail off, I am reminded of this great story about a little child. A town was suffering from a drought for serveral months. The people gaterher together and decided that they needed to pray for rain- so they did. They prayed that tomorrow would be the day it rains! When the next day came along all the townspeople gather for a meeting outside, but it was this lone child who brought an umbrella.
Let's pray now.